Thoughts of Giving Up-Crossfit is Hard

Everybody goes through cycles in life and that includes ruts. I've been consciously trying to remove negativity and things that bring that into my life out the past year.  My biggest enemy is doubt. "I don't think I can" and "I'm not good enough"  are the worst demons I have in my head (which never seems to shut up).  Yesterday was one of those days where I just could not shake them.

I've been trying to get on a sleep, workout, life schedule the past couple of weeks and failing. I can't seem to make it to bed early enough, get up in the morning to workout so it's done for the day, or get things done off my long to-do list. I haven't even blogged much. I don't want to tell everyone that no, I'm not doing 2 a day workouts like you, or seeing ab progress, or eating 100% clean, or rocking my workouts, or getting enough sleep. 

Then yesterday I went to crossfit after having a couple of weeks of only making it 2x a week and going on vacation. We were trying the rope climb for the strength WOD.  I could barely get my initial stance on the rope let alone actually climb it. Yes, I have never climbed a rope before so I didn't know what to expect.  Still, I looked at all these other strong girls, most who could at least get up the rope a little bit and some who could climb the whole things.  

They had strong muscles and backs and toned bodies and could do the WODs Rx.  Then for our WOD there were deadlifts and burpees over the bar.  I did my deadlift with 90 lb (Rx was 100) which was challenging for me.  Multiple times the coach had to tell me to watch my back position and eventually on the last set come over and help me fix it. 

Friday Favorites 5/24/13

Hello all! This week has been so stressful and messy since I came back from vacation mid-week so I've been all off track.  Here's a just a few Friday Favorites to hold you over until I get myself together :)

1. Favorite Workout Song- Default by Django Django

I am OBSESSED with this song. It's catchy and upbeat and will have you bopping your head to it in no time. I'm hoping to catch Django Django when I'm down at Bonnaroo in a couple of weeks!

2. Favorite Recipe to Try this Weekend- Chocolate Chip Cherry Garcia Frozen Yogurt from Chocolate Covered Katie

Recipe is here on the CCK site!

I am a big fan of Chocolate Covered Katie's recipes because most of them are sweets and all of them are healthier versions, with many being gluten free or vegan! I just saw this recipe for chocolate chip cherry garcia frozen yogurt on her blog and am swooning. The Ben and Jerry's version of this flavor is probably my favorite (unless I'm having a massive chocolate craving!) so I'm excited to see a lower calorie version.  A long weekend will be the perfect time to break out the ice cream maker and make a cool treat! 

Vacation to the Happiest Place on Earth

Hello all, I'm back after spending a few days in Disney World in Florida! It was full of  90 degree weather, sunshine, LOTS of eats, dessert every night with dinner, Star Wars weekend, coconut mojitos, and fun . I feel like I need a vacation after my vacation because I'm just dragging along today.  Walking around in the heat and getting up early every morning takes a lot out of you! Back to lots of water and veggies to help me detox a bit!

Also I had an unfortunate and embarrassing fall on a run on my second day of vacation and scraped up my knee pretty awful. I cried and knew it looked a little infected and was in pain from pretty much walking all day. I mostly landed on my right knee on the pavement as my other knee has a tiny scrape and my hands hit the grass.  It still hurts so I'm pretty sure I bruised it up real good and had to take it easy. Hopefully it feels better soon because it still hurts a lot!

Here's some photos from the trip!

I had to rock some Minnie ears like a little girl :)

Disney's Epcot World Showcase is the best part. 

I'm going to Disney World!

Hello, Happy Hump Day to you all! I won't be posting for a few days because soon I'm leaving for Disney World! Sadly it's not for a Disney running event, just a vacation #runnerproblems. I've been a few times so I know the basics, and my sister is slightly obsessed and has become a walking tour guide to Disney.  I'm most excited to ride some rides, wear Minnie ears, and act like a five year old. 

 I'm going to try to get some great AM runs in but of course will be enjoying myself in the happiest place on earth. I'm going to try to eat pretty on point during the day and treat myself to things I really want aka LIVING.   I think it's really important on vacation to unplug and that means not checking my phone or email or social media.  While I do dread coming back to literally hundreds of emails (mostly junk) and sorting through them, getting a chance to not be stressed out by the interwebs for a few days is way worth it!

I might tweet a bit because it's so fast and easy on my phone (so follow me @BreatheBlog for tweets!) but that's it!Getting disconnected and spending quality time with people at leisure is rare these days so it's important to remember that twitter and blogs and Facebook will all still be there when you get online again.  

Any suggestions for fun things to do or place to eat in Disney World? 

Color Run Baltimore Recap

As I read my new issue of Runner's World this past week which featured the popularity of Color Runs on the cover, it was only fortuitous that I was planning to run my first Color Run on Saturday! I had signed up with my boyfriend and bunch of my non-runner friends for the "Happiest 5K on the planet".

In case you haven't heard of it, the Color Run is an untimed 5K in which you are run through color stations where volunteers spray/squirt dyed cornstarch at you.  It mostly makes for really awesome photos when you are covered in a rainbow of color.  It was a drizzly morning in Baltimore as I was waiting in line for the 9 AM race (there was a 2 PM one as well due to popular demand).  I knew the event had sold out with about 25,000 running during the day. I hadn't slept well the night before so I was a little extra cranky and irritable.

I had rushed down to the start  line near Camden Yards baseball stadium to find a massive line (if you could call it that?) of people waiting to run.  It's nice because these kinds of runs are solely for fun so there was lots of teams, kids, and families running together.  I was really disappointed though because I thought the whole event was very unorganized.  It seemed at first they were letting really small waves of people start causing me to wait in line for almost an hour before I started.  There were also lots of people jumping a nearby gate and just starting to run which really messed things up.  I didn't think there was enough Color Run staff monitoring the crowd.  

Keep Smiling!

Well last weekend was my birthday which was fabulous, though I do miss celebrating them at home with my mom who gets me birthday balloons and puts a birthday place mat at my seat at the table. Yes, I like pretending I am 5, not 25 :) I got a little blue box (another one! So lucky!) from my favorite guy which had a really elegant, simple ring along with some coconut gluten-free waffles on my birthday morning.  Oh and a nose piercing happened finally :) I definitely don't have a problem celebrating my birthday and treating myself! 

My birthday involved one too many adult beverages like these

and sweets including these amazing lavendar honey goat's milk doughnuts with coffee ice cream. What?!

And then some sushi dinner happened this week. And then skipping a workout to go see Iron Man 3.  I was feeling anxious yesterday because I should be hitting the gym and clean eats hard after a bunch of dinners out this past week. I also didn't feel like going grocery shopping on my birthday after a late night out so I've been buying my lunch at work and not drinking enough water.

Sweaty Survey & Vitacost Reviews

A few weeks ago I saw this survey from Kim at My Healthy Nest  and thought it would be super fun to fill out!
Her super sweaty questions were: 

1. Which are you more responsive to during a workout: positive encouragement or peer pressure?

Definitely positive encouragement.  For example, I feel really self conscious at Crossfit but having a coach tell me I'm getting stronger and giving me a high five makes me feel awesome and keeps me coming back!

2. What’s something on your fitness bucket list? 

Running a full marathon is (which I'm signed up for in the fall!) and also getting that elusive Boston qualifying time one day.  I'd also really like to run Big Sur after reading about it recently!

3. Would you rather be in a group fitness class that’s overwhelmingly crowded or awkwardly empty?  

I hate feeling awkward but I'm going to have to go with the empty class. I hate when it's crowded and I have to be super conscious of not bumping into people. It takes away from my focus and makes me feel anxious. 

Quarter of a Century

Guess what all, Cinco de Mayo= my birthday and this year I turned a quarter century old.  YIKES!

Turning old (yes old, not older) scares me because I feel like my twenties have been so full of change and uncertainty. Age is just a number but fear pushes me to try things I never thought I would or was afraid to before because I want to live life to the fullest and be happy.

5 Things I Love That I've Done In the Last 5 Years(Because 25 would take me all month to write)

1.  Lived away at university and had some wild and crazy times while I was young and stupid but had good people watching my back.

2. Tested multiple career interests out.  I've tried out multiple jobs and possible fields of interest throughout internships in college and two full-time jobs I've had out of school. Some days I'm frustrated that I didn't automatically start with the ultimate job I want, but I'm glad to have taken the time to find what I want to do. You never know where  life leads you and picking a dream career out of the air without actually doing it is unrealistic!

3.  Went on a crazy last minute vacation to Scotland . I went my best girls in college to crash on our friend's couch, who had been studying abroad. It was great to just buy a plane ticket and have a little overseas adventure.

Just Another Nike Women's Half DC Recap Part 2

Here's to the actual Nike Women's Half Marathon race! Part 1 recap is here if you missed!

The race started at 7 AM and as always I was got into the 7:30-8:59 corral with 15 minutes to spare. I was really anxious and slept really crappy, getting only about 5 hours of sleep including me waking up in a panic in the middle of the night. I was also nervous because I was kind of in the front and had lots of room in my corral. Oh yeah and I started flipping out because I was right next to the stage where OMG Shalane Flanagan was. 

She is my running idol, and I just read the issue of Runner's World  with her and Kara Goucher on the cover so it was a big deal.  They had Shalane and Joan Benoit Samuelson there for a moment of silence for Boston.  Both of them were "jogging" the 13.1 miles. You know, just an easy run, haha. I saw Shalane at one point around mile 4, and it totally pushed me. 

My legs had been really tight from cross-training all week and even though I did my best to foamroll and stretch all week but it didn't seem to help much race day. My goal was to run sub 1:40, or a 7:30 pace. The run itself was pretty basic though I had never run through a tunnel so that was really fun, minus how it messed up my Garmin satellites so my pace and distance seemed a little inaccurate.  

I thought Nike did a great job having water and Nuun about every 2 miles with lots of volunteers.  The course was mostly flat, which is nice, but I was a little disappointed that most of it was like the Cherry Blossom 10 Miler which I had just run.  It actually got a little boring, especially that stretch around Mile 8, that is completely straight.  There were no on course photographers for me to try to smile at which I thought was pretty lame of Nike, especially with the hefty registration fee. 

This race was also the first time I had to stop and use a port a potty during a race. It was mostly my anxiety and nerves, but thank goodness I didn't have to wait for one to be open.  Around Mile 8 or so I found a 7:30 pacer (I didn't know Nike was having pacers?) so to keep pushing myself during my hardest miles 8-10, I kept up with the pace group.  This race was a really mental one for me where I had to push out all the negative thoughts saying my legs were too tight and that I wasn't good enough.  

Just Another Nike Women's DC Half Recap Part 1

Well, like many others I too ran the Nike Women's Inaugural DC Half this weekend.  I've always read great things about the Nike events and really wanted to run their San Francisco marathon or half marathon so I jumped on the chance when I read they were doing an inaugural race in DC! It's a female focused, Nike focused race which is super popular because you get a special Tiffany's necklace in lieu of a medal.  

What lady doesn't  love a little blue box after running 13.1 miles? 

Since the races are so popular there is a lottery to ensure a field of only 15,000 runners.  I was accepted automatically through the college student registration which still had a hefty registration fee of a little less than the normal $160, but still, that's the most I've ever paid (and probably will) for a race. I think you are pretty much paying for that Tiffany's swag.

My best friend lives in DC, and I just crashed on her couch for the Cherry Blossom 10 Miler so she didn't  mind seeing me again :)  I got down to the city on a gorgeous Saturday afternoon the day prior to the race. I was expecting it to be crowded, and it was. The Georgetown Nike store was mobbed because it was full of Nike race gear, and the expo was in a tent a few blocks away near the water.  

When I got there the line for packet pickup was around 0.25 miles long. YIKES!  

The boyfriend went to go grab us Baked and Wired cupcakes for lunch (best cupcakes in Georgetown, IMO) which included a big red velvet cupcake for me.   The line ended up moving pretty quickly, but still, it was long. Finally I picked up my bib and pace wristband that I needed to get into the corral and headed to the Expotique. 

I was really disappointed with this.  The tent was small and crowded. It only had major sponsors such as Luna bar and Nuun, which had samples of what they would have on the course, along with Team in Training.  

The main focus I felt was the Nike shoes and the limited edition collection of NWM DC shoes.  

They had a little game where you could type in a code on three different wall spots to see if you won a prize which was neat, but again, it was crowded so less fun than it seemed.  The limited edition Nike shoes are very pretty and an appropriate Tiffany blue color but a little expensive for my budget.  I ended up getting the half zip (pre-birthday gift to myself) from the Nike Store which was less crowded on the way back. 

 I also got to find my name on the wall outside the Nike store with all the runners names which I thought was really cool.  Afterwards I had a fairly relaxing afternoon and dinner to gear up for the race the next morning.  

Next up, race recap Part 2 of the actual race :) Keep reading!